sugarrush-77

Today the sermon was great but during my cell group meeting afterwards, I was immediately sucked into an insipid conversation that lasted 1.5 hours. I rolled out of bed finding it difficult to care about anything or anyone, so there’s that, but also some people are really boring. No offense to them, because I’m sure there’s someone out there that finds them interesting, but I find them really boring. And 2 of those people happened to be locked in intense conversation over the most inconsequential, surface level conversation about working visas in front of me, in a situation where I could not get up and leave. I was bored to tears, and annoyed that my afternoon had been wasted in such a way. Next time, I’m saying that I need to meet a friend, and I’m getting up. The last 30-40 minutes of substantial conversation we had at the end did not make up for it in any way, shape or form. Could’ve done without it. Why do we have these again?

I’m in a state of intense despair because I’m pretty sure I have to see these people for the next 6 months to a year. Gonna be like stuffing a sandpaper rod up my asshole.

Sermon was great though. Today I found it difficult to concentrate, but I still got most of it. It jumped through a couple topics kinda like this.

1. Ask not what God can do for you, but what you can do for God

2. Living as a witness of Jesus’s death and His coming back to life

3. Living as a witness part two: you must spread the Good News

Ask not what God can do for you, but what you can do for God

This one pretty much stands on its own, and I spaced out for ten minutes daydreaming of some random bullshit, I bet, because I don’t even remember what I dreamed about.

Living as a witness of Jesus’s death and His coming back to life

In modern Christianity, especially in Korean circles, there’s this made up bullshit of people talking about giving a lot of glory to God through success in this world. We’ve made that up, that kind of statement does NOT exist in the Bible, and the first Christians definitely did not prescribe to that.

The material conditions of the first Christians’ lives did not change remarkably after their conversion to Christ, except when they were carried off to be fed to lions for sport, or killed in various other situations for what they believed in. The change was purely internal, and their behavioral changes were from within. The slaves were still slaves, the working class remained working class. It seems that God rarely rewarded them materially for their obedience, and despite that, they gave their lives for Him, and used their lives to serve others.

This goes against the grain of how society in developed nations are today – individualism is at a record high, and the concept of serving others in love has long since been forgotten. Yet God’s call still remains, and we have forerunners in the faith to look at to remind ourselves of what we should all strive to be like. And the important thing to remember is not how great the apostles were, but to see instead the God that changed their hearts, and transformed them.

Living as as witness part two: you must spread the Good News

• The Good News is not something you spread when you are ready to spread it, when you’ve properly prepared your heart, when your life is still a mess, and when you’ve finally overcome the sins you’ve been struggling with all your life. If that’s your standard, you’ll never be ready anyways.
• Spreading the Good News is like spreading breaking news. It doesn’t matter what’s going on in your life right now, you’ve gotta spread it. As long as you’re confident, and you spread it with conviction, you’ve done it right.
• If your heart is overflowing with joy about Jesus and the Good News, you’ll want to spread it anyways. And if you aren’t preoccupied with this matter, you’ll be preoccupied with other matters of the flesh. And to remain in flesh is to remain in sin, yada yada yada, you know the spiel.